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Ello~!
I love video games, and I get a lot of inspiration from them. Currently, I am working on my first game that I will be publishing. I have a ton of hobbies, I love to sing, draw, and write, and I'm pretty decent at doing all three.
These stamps will pretty much sum up the rest about me because I don't want to write out my life story and I like pictures.



JP Language Level stamp2 by Faeth-design Stamp - Tablet User by firstfear Indie Games Developer by orian-stamps

Silent Hill 2 Noisy Hill James by Cubehouse Silent Hill Noisy Hill Pillow by Cubehouse Silent Hill 2 Noisy Hill Maria by Cubehouse Sushi Love Stamp by wangqr Shadow of the Colossus by skinnyveestamp

I Support Honest Critique by querulousArtisan Tenchu stamp by Llingy Old Gregg Stamp by MarshmallowSkirt Portal: Turret stamp by thatcoldmask is not art stamp by shilin

Fable II Stamp by Meganra FishCenter Live Stamp! by ZenBlood Vincent 'Ugh' Catherine Stamp by CrumpetMuncher Markiplier: Singing with Maggie by Oreleth they make me feel so bad stamp by neanimorph

BoF - Yi Jung by Nyfaline
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Hello, everybody~! :D (Big Grin) 

The other day I was thinking about some of the problems I had as a kid, and one of the things that crossed my mind was when I had a severe case of OCD. OCD, of course, is "Obsessive Compulsive Disorder." A lot of characters that come through the OC Court of Justice are Creepypasta characters, and a lot of Creepypasta characters have mental issues. So, I've decided to share with you guys my experience with OCD and hopefully it'll help out anyone who wants to create a character with OCD, or just inform someone who is interested in knowing what's it's like to have it. Anyways, let's get started. :happybounce: 

My OCD revolved around washing "dirt" and "germs" off of myself and all of my possessions, as well as feeling the need to repeat random actions I would do a certain amount of times. I'm also slightly autistic, and from what I can tell, most people with OCD also have a varying level of autism. It's a two-in-one deal! :dummy:

I noticed my OCD behavior around 1st or 2rd grade. It started with being uncomfortable with letting people touch me, but it soon progressed to doing insane things like washing my paper if someone I didn't feel okay with handed it to me. Even though I was aware of how asinine it is to try and wash paper, I couldn't feel comfortable unless I "cleansed" the "dirt" and "germs" from it. I didn't even have to see or smell the dirt, I just had to think it was there.

Having an OCD tick is like having an itch that is un-scratchable unless you go through a certain ritualistic routine. I had to wash my possessions very carefully, in order to make sure that I didn't spoil them during them process of cleaning them, and therefore would have to clean them...again. It was like performing a sacred task, and it took up a shit ton of my time.

I was also very passionate about making sure that I and the people I knew washed their hands after going to the bathroom. I would literally wait outside of the bathroom door at daycare, at home, ect; to wait and hear who used the faucet and who didn't. (I was such a creep :XD:) If someone didn't wash their hands after going to the bathroom, I'd wash anything they've handled before I'd handle it. It still grosses me out, and it's not too insane to be grossed out by it anyway, but if someone doesn't wash their hands after going to the bathroom, there's a 50% chance I'll wash whatever they touch of mine (if they touch it, of course.)

It was around 5th grade that my mother took me to a child psychologist/shrink. I was terrified; I didn't want to change. My big fear was that if I were to change and become comfortable with dirt and germs like a normal person, I'd be screwed if I relapsed and reverted back to being afraid of germs again. During the time I was cured, I would have gotten everything I owned and loved "dirty" and I'd have to go on a mass cleaning spree, or throw all my cherished items away. That's how sick I was.

It was really ruining my life for a while, and not a lot of kids were sympathetic. One time this girl threw a stuffed animal I was showing her on the floor, and it really freaked me out. I don't think I've touched it much since then. Now, I'm too old to care about it, so I have no reason to handle it anyway.

I remember once breaking down and crying on the bus on my way to school because I knew that I couldn't keep it up for much longer. I think that was during 4th grade.

What prodded me to finally change was sometime at the beginning of or in the middle of 5th grade. We had to learn how to change classrooms for different classes, thus we had to change desks, too. That was an embarrassing, hideous day. I was on the floor, bawling my eyes out, and cleaning my desk from head to toe (and all the contents in it, including paper) while everyone in the classroom watched. Stare

After that, I was able to pull up my britches and I learned how to function in the world.

Even to this day, I still have to wash my hands after tying my shoes, briefly touching the floor, and other things that are annoying but not too hard to manage. There's still other little ticks I have that are unrelated to cleanliness, but they aren't important.

Well, thank you for reading. Meow :3  I hope you found this informative. If you have any questions, please ask!

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I'm sorry that the new episode(s) of the OC Court of Justices are taking so long, some family issues popped up.
HOLY CRAP...Someone who interviewed Tomm Hulett (ex producer of the Silent Hill series) responded to an angry post I made about him on Tumblr. Imma get the fuck outta here!:rainbowllamaride: 
That awkward moment when you completely revised a story and excitedly submitted it to a critique site, hoping that it would be a major improvement, only to find out that people like it less now. :faint:
Back to work.

I wasn't talking about Tease, by the way. I'm nervous for those reviews, but I think they'll be more positive. ^^;
One ticket to the "Uncanny Valley" please!

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Seriously, that shit is scary. Why did they need to make it look like she's about to eat you?
I feel great! The new OCCOJ episode turned out well, and I've uploaded my first OC in...Years. :dummy:

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jessicatorenandskbff Featured By Owner 3 hours ago
zenpai
i have found you
*slowly hugs teh zenpai*
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xXBroken-InsanityXx Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Student Artist
Zenpai! I found your DA finally!

You are so cool! 
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ZenBlood Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Student General Artist
Hiya!
And thank you! La la la la

How are you?
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xXBroken-InsanityXx Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Student Artist
You're most welcome 

I'm fabulously good, you?
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ZenBlood Featured By Owner Edited 4 days ago  Student General Artist
That's good to hear.

Eh, I'm doing okay! ^^;
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MistressWhispy Featured By Owner May 12, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Senpai
after years of searching(Years=5 minutes on google)
I have finally found you DA
and it's FABULOUS!*Sassy pose*
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ZenBlood Featured By Owner May 14, 2015  Student General Artist
It's not Senpai, it's...Zenpai.
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And thank you. I'm glad you like my stuffs. :happybounce: 
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MistressWhispy Featured By Owner May 14, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Omfg X'D
I see what you did there,cause...hah.......*Awkward laugh intensifies*

And you're welcome X'D
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koimonster22 Featured By Owner May 10, 2015  Student General Artist
your avatar, I don't know whether to laugh my guts out or scream XD
Chili Anime Emoji (Hahahaha) [V5] 
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ZenBlood Featured By Owner May 10, 2015  Student General Artist
Scream, because it's coming for you! Five Nights at Freddy's 2 - New Foxy Icon 
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koimonster22 Featured By Owner May 10, 2015  Student General Artist
Run Away :scream  1 
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cutewerewolfgirl Featured By Owner May 9, 2015  Student Traditional Artist
Your reviews are pretty great and not as annoying or bashing like the others I seen. Great work
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ZenBlood Featured By Owner May 9, 2015  Student General Artist
:happy: Awesome, thank you.
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cutewerewolfgirl Featured By Owner May 9, 2015  Student Traditional Artist
you deserved it! ^^
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ZenBlood Featured By Owner May 9, 2015  Student General Artist
hug 
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emthesmall Featured By Owner May 7, 2015
oh my, i found your DA 0w0
hi, i'm the person who was fan grilling over you in the comments of the rant where i recommended your channel. i honestly love your reviews solo much and i can't wait for more! >w<
keep up the good work, i'll just sit here and stalk you 
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ZenBlood Featured By Owner May 7, 2015  Student General Artist
Dun dun duuuun~! :icondramaticgopherplz: Yes, you found me.

Hi! :D
I'm very happy to hear that, thank you for leaving a comment. :dance:
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emthesmall Featured By Owner May 7, 2015
welcome ^w^ i'm gonna try to read your CP Tease soon to. i get you are awesome at writing~

thanks to you and one other reviewer i've been able to refine some of my OCs further, so i'm very thankful ^w^
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ZenBlood Featured By Owner May 7, 2015  Student General Artist
Marvelous, I would truly appreciate that. Kawaii Grin Face Emoji 

Awesome! It's always great to know that the reviews help everyone. :D
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Daws3 Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2015   General Artist
Thanks for the fave! :hug:
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